Gahhh super tempted to read shoujo manga and super tempted to play the games in my phone but its gonna run out of memory :X
I wonder why I suddenly have a dislike towards a certain someone even though I don't really really care about him/her. Let's just name it A.
Nah, not jealous... I have my own special relationship with uhm... A's very close friend who is B... Uhm, saying I'm not jealous is like a lie. And I don't lie (I try not to cause Mum sorted out this ex-habit of mine since young) I just twist my words more. Or I just don't tell you anything at all if I have to keep it a secret. Or, I just avoid telling you the truth :P
Don't know if I should confide my feelings to B, but I might just be paranoid/imagining things as what B may say. After all, I'm a possessive person from the start. Just that I feel a bit more left out nowadays. I mean hardly anyone text me and stuff. I don't know. Chels getting slightly distant sometimes. But I guess she need some space too so I can't blame her. Just hope unni won't get too upset about it.
B would probably just brush it off. I don't know.
Everything is now full of uncertainties. Even my mental state is really like a roller coaster ride.
Maybe I shouldn't be that judgmental. unni said B was really chatty and kinda rude/insensitive/wtf.
I mean, after leaking out so much info, you might already have guessed who the hell A and B is. If not, good. Continue reading then.
Well, I certainly should not even be bothered and should continue to enjoy my last year as Sec4s. Cause that's where most of le good friends come from (certain judgment of certain teacher *ahem*). But I just get the feel when things are gonna come to end, it's just gonna crumble and end up being ruined. Sort of what kinda happened when I graduated from P6, but that's a differently story.
Just can't help being a bit insecure... I might be just paranoid. It may be a feeling that will pass. I can't figure.
Better to focus on O levels ba.